Another shut door

It’s hard to job search. It’s emotionally distressing and exhausting. It’s depressing.

One shut door after another shut door.

It’s hard to have enthusiasm for a field where there’s so much elitism and exclusion.

Why have I invested so much of myself into studying, into learning?

I wish computers never existed.

Maybe they have an abstract potential to be helpful. But in practice they are destructive.

Look at where Earth and society were 30 years ago. Compare that to now.