Where to find it?

I was walking along a couple streets of my city and was utterly shocked – horrified – to see the extensive, severe destitution and sickness. I cannot believe what I just saw. I cannot believe it is my city, and my country. I cannot believe that the world has become like this.

I write rhetorically “I cannot believe” yet of course I can actually understand what the roots of sickness and suffering are.

I don’t know a lot of things about the world. From reading I know that there are parts of the world with extreme poverty and destitution. I’ve always wanted to believe in where I lived and the people who comprise my community and my country. I’ve always wanted to believe that even though things weren’t always perfect that we were sufficiently healthy to keep ourselves going, to be able to make it.

But after what I just saw I can say that I don’t think we’re making it. Its failing. This community and this country is failing.

The purpose of writing this isn’t to point the finger, although I would really like to know how and why this is happening. I’m familiar enough with reading various sources of commentary and news what the most common reasons are. But I don’t understand. I don’t always agree with what I read and I think much of the time people start writing things or reacting to things and lose sight of a more holisitic vision which is always essential in seeing the world.

Well, I’m just one person. I didn’t choose for things to be this way and I wasn’t the person making the decisions – or failing to make them as the case may be – which have had disastrous consequences. I wasn’t the person entrusted with responsibility to run any particular aspect or organization of any part of the systems which comprise fabric of society. And even if I had tried, no one would have listened to me.